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Well time is nearing every closer and the dreaded pre-eclampsia has risen again. Trotted off to hospital on weds night after the midwife carted me off to hospital after seeing me at home. Waited around for ages until they told me that they wanted to keep me in overnight which wasnt happening again, so they carted me off home with a 24hr urine test to do.

So I’m going back to the hospital today and if the symptoms are the same I believe they are going to induce me.. this was mentioned on weds night but to be fair I wasnt really paying attention as I just wanted to go home with my man.

We shall see what they have to say as my feet are still swollen and no matter how much I have my feet up or have warm baths they do not seem to be going down…damm them!!!

Motherhood here I come lol…..

Ok so I have probably done a really stupid thing and just watched some videos on You Tube of woman giving birth. Actually thinking about it stupid maybe the wrong word to use. I looked for curiosity reasons and now I am even more scared than I originally thought. I know that a lot of woman give birth and that its the most natural thing in the world but I am scared of the pain and losing my temper whilst in Labour.

I really don’t want to show myself up in front of Alex and the midwifes. I know that midwifes have seen it all before and have had every scenario played out to them but I’m still worried that I will make a complete and total arse of myself.

I suppose that all woman think these thoughts as their due date draws ever nearer and that it is natural that these thoughts are running through my head, but none the less I still feel scared.

I know that I am going to have all the support around me that I will need but primarily it is all down to me and that scares the fook out of me. I personally don’t think that the antenatal classes we have been going to have been good either as it has installed more fears into me about going into labour. I know that they are doing it for good reasons but going into it in minute detail is pretty nerve racking.

This is something that I never thought would ever happen to me and although I cannot wait to be a mum and part of a family, the fears of labour are seriously praying on my mind at the moment. I think that I will just have to concentrate on the fact that there will be a lovely, gorgeous baby at the end of all that pain, and that it will all be worth it.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/americas/7203797.stm

I am absoutley gob smacked, cannot believe it. I nearly cried, sad I know but I am hormonal..

At least I can still look at his gorgeousness in 10 things I hate about you.

2008!!! It’s going to be a weird one….

No longer will it just be me and him indooors, there will be another little one hanging around with us.

Peace and quiet will officially no longer exist lol

Hope everyone has as good a year as we plan too.

Oh and a special mention to two my closest and loved friends – this year will be fantastic for you too, moving in together it’s going to be great!!!!

Happy New Year!!

Damm my swollen ankles and damm my swollen hands and face grrr. Feel like someone has pumped loads of air into me (no sarcy or dirty comments please).

I have to keep my feet up in the evening now and be really uncomftable….

Oh well not long now, can you believe that my mum and her Fiance have a £5 bet on to see if I will go full term or not. Damm cheek I say.

Place your bets now please, all proceeds will go to the baby.

Well up until now I haven’t had any cravings, however yesterday for about a minute I wanted to eat crayons. I had the watering of the mouth and the urge to go and buy some, then all of a sudden it went away….weird.

I just want to tell my fantastic man that I love him very much and that he is the best man ever!!!

Your gonna be a great dad and I cannot wait to start our family together xxxx

Well its been a while since i last posted. So to all those that read this brilliant and exciting blog I apologise.

Things have been a bit up and down recently, I have had to go back into hospital (and got to see the new maternity ward). Now I have a stinking cold to top it all off. The baby has also decided to wake whilst i am asleep thus I am not sleeping very well. Although I am making sure Alex gets his fair share of kicks too. Its only right lol.

Still no luck on the job front but then would you employ a 6 month pregnant woman? Too much hassle me thinks. Oh well in 4 weeks i get to apply for maternity pay…joy joy.

well great start to the week I lost my job. The reason given was that I couldnt do the job, which is a big pile of shite as I proved it several times over. Once I informed them that I was pregnant things went down hill. They waited for 5 months to tell me this when they should have done it after 3.

I have been saying for a while now that I knew they wouldnt give me a contract, that much was plainly obvious, the only bug bearer is they way they did it. Oh well they got out of paying maternity pay, so saved them a few quid.

So because of this people think that they can tell me what to do, do this do that. Im not stupid and I know what I have to do. Being pregnant isnt going to get me a job when i can only work for another 3 months!!!!!!!!!!FFS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I Will find out what options I have and go from there….

There are some people in this world who are destined to be alone. For the pure fact that they are evil liars and have no life!!!

Why is it that when you say you would prefer things to stay the way they are that it is interpreted completly the wrong way and that they no longer wish to have anything to do with you?

The way I see it is they either want sympathy from those they are still talking too or the fact that they know that that person knows too much about them and no longer runs the risk of other friends or loved ones finding out the truth.

Some people really shoot themselves in the foot don’t they?

It can no longer be if I see you in the street i will nod and say hello, instead it will be i will walk with my head down and cross the road and pretend that you no longer exisit anymore. Some people have a lot of growing uo to do or they will end up sad and alone, with no-one to call their own.

I also think its because they are lonely and miserable in their own lives that they have to impose those feelings onto other people. Sad oh so sad.

What is the saying about keeping enemies closer, there is good sense and reason behind that saying, and I am sure that people in the past have used that saying to their advantage, and some who will realise how true that saying is.