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For those of you that read this you may want to check out www.alexandtoni.co.uk. That will keep you all up to date with whats going on with us, however this one will just be filled with me rambling on about allsorts….

Well its been just over a week since the big 30, just wanted to say a big thanks to all that was there that night. I had a wicked birthday and was made all the better by laughing at Paul in Vaults (queen’s). Thanks for all my gorgeous gifts, Alex, Stacey, Jew, Steve, Mark, Balls, Jo, Adam…(and breathe…)

I would also like to thank you all for not putting stupid posters all over the place, announcing to the world I am older…whoo hoo!!!!

Hahaha knew you wouldnt do it if I moaned enough…you all fell into my plans hahahaha

OMG i’m 30 aaarrrrggggghhhh lol, so far have had a great day. I had a lovely (small) fry up due to diet, am going to go shopping for an outfit for tonight…got mates coming round later and the fun begins at 6…whooo hooo

Well its only taken at least 6 months to get it done but the carpet is great and looks amazing. Cannot fault the guy who fitted it either, he did a bang up job. All the furniture is back in and it all looks bloody great. Me so happy la la la la. Easily pleased see, only takes a carpet lol

Ok so that time of year is upon us once again, only this time it is different as I am going to be 30!! A little scared i admit but not a lot I can do about it. that is unless someone has a time machine? I would really appreciate it if you do.

So one of my pressies got delivered yesterday, I know what it is but its being flaunted in my face when all I wanna do is open it!!!

The big 30, I wanna cry lol

Ok so I know that it has been a while since I last posted but what with changing nappies, feeding and cleaning etc, there is not a lot of time left during the day.

Things are going really well, Ryan is growing bigger by the day and changing everyday. The time sure does go quick already he is two months old. I cannot wait till the summer so we can go out everyday and walk and feed the ducks lol.

Thats all I have time for now, Adios

Well what can I say, I am loving being a mother

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Well having been to the hospital to be checked out again, the doctors have decided that they are going to induce me tonight. I will at some point this weekend become a mum eeeeeeeeek

Well time is nearing every closer and the dreaded pre-eclampsia has risen again. Trotted off to hospital on weds night after the midwife carted me off to hospital after seeing me at home. Waited around for ages until they told me that they wanted to keep me in overnight which wasnt happening again, so they carted me off home with a 24hr urine test to do.

So I’m going back to the hospital today and if the symptoms are the same I believe they are going to induce me.. this was mentioned on weds night but to be fair I wasnt really paying attention as I just wanted to go home with my man.

We shall see what they have to say as my feet are still swollen and no matter how much I have my feet up or have warm baths they do not seem to be going down…damm them!!!

Motherhood here I come lol…..

Ok so I have probably done a really stupid thing and just watched some videos on You Tube of woman giving birth. Actually thinking about it stupid maybe the wrong word to use. I looked for curiosity reasons and now I am even more scared than I originally thought. I know that a lot of woman give birth and that its the most natural thing in the world but I am scared of the pain and losing my temper whilst in Labour.

I really don’t want to show myself up in front of Alex and the midwifes. I know that midwifes have seen it all before and have had every scenario played out to them but I’m still worried that I will make a complete and total arse of myself.

I suppose that all woman think these thoughts as their due date draws ever nearer and that it is natural that these thoughts are running through my head, but none the less I still feel scared.

I know that I am going to have all the support around me that I will need but primarily it is all down to me and that scares the fook out of me. I personally don’t think that the antenatal classes we have been going to have been good either as it has installed more fears into me about going into labour. I know that they are doing it for good reasons but going into it in minute detail is pretty nerve racking.

This is something that I never thought would ever happen to me and although I cannot wait to be a mum and part of a family, the fears of labour are seriously praying on my mind at the moment. I think that I will just have to concentrate on the fact that there will be a lovely, gorgeous baby at the end of all that pain, and that it will all be worth it.